Each Life's lessons

These are some of my favorite quote's from my all time favorite TV drama, Grey's Anatomy. Though I'm not a med-stud, somehow it made feel emotional and marked each lessons in me. Here are some of those;

Maybe we're not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. Appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes to simply be human Maybe, we're thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate.

Indeed, let's all be grateful for those tiny things we received each day. The happy ones, or might be the opposites. The pains we felt, and the love we have from those we believe who trully cares for us and who's giving us courage to move on.

At the end of the day, there are some things you just can't help but talk about. Some things we just don't want to hear, and some things we say because we can't be silent any longer. Some things are more than we say, than what you do. Some things you say cause there's no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself. And not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themeselves.

We're all humans! Vulnerable

of what the single word

may caused us - FAILURE

Hmmm... well, there would always be days we need to ponder when to speak and when to shut. With all those negativities the power of being compost is our huge refuge.

I had a conversation with my student just a while ago. She asked me how was I when I'm angry??? Well I always have this quiet person inside me moved in when I'm mad. But my husband knows when I'm angry! hehehe... The funny thing was when when I got mad on one of my co-worker. She got into my nerves basically. My team leader knows about it. A couple of minutes she asked me to buy siopao but seeing me looking mad, not in the mood, walking towards me to say her request, she instead went back to her cubicle and said to herself; " Ay sirado man d i sa vegie resto karon..." HAHAHA!!! Narinig ko 'yon! Ma'am Abby hindi kaya. Always kaya open ang resto. .. Lakas pala talaga nang aura ko pag galit. Hehehe...

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had a complete and utter faith. Santa Clause, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

I didn't grow up believing with Tooth Fairies or Santa Clause and perhaps! It might be because at my young age I know in real that they were just fantasies created by our wide imaginations. But I believe Ifound my prince, he may not be the prince I exactly want to have but in him I felt love and completeness. And I was a princess, wala nga lang huge castle, wide garden, and all those luxurious stuffs and crown hahaha .

A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. YOu think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but I guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. FEAR OF FAILURE, FEAR OF REJECTION, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A Stutch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mstakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally undestand for ourselves what Benjamine really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that walking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.

Each time I fall, never did it came to me my regrets of trying to do what I want. I was glad. I got up. ... and learned to stand still. There maybe mistakes in life I've done, many were hurt but I will never be this HAPPY if I haven't done those things. We're humans, vulnerable of what the word 'FAILURE' may caused us, but FAITH and DETERMINATION will bring us higher and keep our feet on the same ground. Just feel each life's lessons and learned by it!

Word of the day: HAPPINESS ['hæpɪnɪs]

DEFINITION: (noun)

Someone who is happy has feeling of pleasure, usually because something nice has happened, or because they feel satisfied with their life.

This is the day of blissfulness, happiness, joy, pleasant things.

I think mostly I was looking for HAPPINESS.

... and I found it!!!

I have a happy place;

I have a very happy marriage;

A happy mom too!

Note: Ang picture nato ay ewan ko't saang website ko to nakuha. Pansinin niyo po... Tabingi mukha ko lol :)

My Wonderful Blessing

Our little angel was born on JUne 16, 2009 at 10:14 AM. Our doctor said June 21 as my due date. Her name is Eleiza Rozette "Ora" Aquino-Lazaro. We had chosen names well in advance for both occassions - be it a girl or a boy. A modernized-filipino sounding name for her. TAken from her grandmothers Elizabeth and Rosita. Well, I was secretly hoping for a girl although 85% were saying it's a boy judging by how high I carried the baby. I had a safe delivery. Four hours labor! Woosh!!! There Ora goes!

Hard to believe but she's 3 months old here . You just keep on getting cuter and cuter! Can't wait for one year portrait soon!

It wasn't a bad thing after all..

Grateful! I am

We'll this day isn't that bad at all. Just a while ago I started my day in good mood. Greeting my hubby a sweet good morning text message and went to work positively. And.. there's this thing that spiced up my day. 1300 was my lunch, I didn't know that it was moved to 1200. We'll it's actually my fault. GNA staff from my company informed already that I'll be having my trial lesson on 1300 but maybe because I was having headache and felt so sleepy 'twas out of my mind.

GNA Manager: Hi mam, You have 1300 Trial lesson right? (while me, getting water from the water dispenser holding a mug, spoon and fork, getting ready for my lunch hehehe).

Me: Sir, halah! I forgot! ( huhuhu)

GNA Manager: Sige lang , sir Harold took the TL. ( w/a smile, buti na lang mabait si Sir. He's my favorite by the way , chuckle)

To sir Harold: Sir super sorry, sorry, sorry. Okay lang yan surely the stud will enroll. I had his 1st trial also last 26th. I feel it!

Lesson learned? ... F O C U S E ... F O C U S E ... didn't have a good lunch by the way. I was feeling guilty.

But there would always been wonderful in my day! My husband messaged me that 2 weeks from now he will be promoted from work (weeehhh!!!). This is just one of the best blessings we received since our little one came into our lives. Next month he will be trained by some chinese business men who are experts to run an architectural plant. (Super hero yun eh. Work- Board Review-Family) We'll he's very proud to say anyway that he's the youngest one to be promoted since the company started for decades. I guess with all these blessings we received, our home, his job, our little one, these are the things we are proud of as one happy family and are grateful for. ;)

The Beauty of Giving Birth

I decided early in my pregnancy that natural was the way for me in spite of my huge tummy. My nanay had a ceasarian section, and she was much worried on me wanting to have it naturally.

After researching I realized that it is crazy to think that you cannot do it. Why would you want to give your newborn baby drugs? I can’t imagine. So I started during pregnancy, teaching my body to relax, breathing, listening to relaxing music and training my muscles.

I woke up around 4 am when I noticed my water breaks. Since ‘twas my first time, never did I imagine that it was already my water starting to break. I went back to sleep since I didn’t feel any pain as my hubby advised. Then after a few minutes there came another one. I called my nanay to let her know it started. We decided to go to a midwife nearby, which came to be my godmother as well. I walked for about 50 meters from our house to the clinic. From there I knew it was already 5 cm. She let me know that I needed to push the baby before 12 hours to avoid complications.

We got home and that was the time I felt the contractions. It got down to 3-5 mins apart. I went to the bathroom to take a bath then headed myself to the hospital where I am scheduled to give birth. I got checked in at the hospital at 6 am and contractions dropped to 1-2 mins apart. Once in a while I took a glance to my husband which was out from the laboratory room where I was. Looking worried, and so I am.

I walked around, sat on the chair when a nurse asked me to have a blood & urine sample. Since it’s getting painful I told her I couldn’t have a pee anymore and blood continued flowing. I could still remember how disappointed the nurse when I refused to have the laboratory sample.

… sat on a wheelchair, about 9 til 10 AM I new I had to push, I rolled over and they checked me, I was full dilated. I pushed for a little over an hour, my beautiful daughter was born at 10:14 AM. Midwives, nurses and the doctor had a tough time attending with me ( hahaha I know).

After a few hours the numbness in my leg finally went away and all was well.

But, knowing I wanted more children, and never wanting to have that kind of experience again, when I next became pregnant, I heard about and began to study visualization and relaxation. I never wanted to be in a situation where I felt so out of control and scared.

The long and short of it is that I now have these two incredible poeple who I could never live without, Oscar and Ora , and are a constant source of joy.

It was the most amazing experience. We‘re planning to have another one 5 years from now and will definitely go the same way! I think every woman should at least try natural. I didn’t slept for two days, didn’t pee for 3 days, didn’t poo for 5 days and was very much intoxicated this is due to my stitches getting much painful since I didn’t choose to take any medical pain reliever. But gladly I overcome everything.