Sun Shines After The Rain

Random Photos of May-June 2011:

Here are some pictures of Ora and Quad's highlights of the season so far.

Being a parent has taught me more about myself than anything else. It has increased my patience and love. I know what bothers me as well as what brings me the greatest joy. I have had to search myself to discover what is truly important to me. And in doing so I have found that my husband and daughter are what matters.

Before Quad's Arrival Oca took us for a treat after we have done some grocery shopping.

A day before my Super One's 2nd Birthday

An Afternoon delight with our Ninkee Doo busy playing on her crackers.

It is a proven fact that when you serve someone you grow to love them. Having a child means that you experience more love in your life. It also adds people to your world that love you. Your child won't always love you, because there are times when they will say they hate you. But those moments are greatly outweighed by a spontaneous hug and genuine "I love you."

I thank God for every remembrance of you!

Never in a million years did I think I'd have someone so utterly and completely perfect. Someone who'd make me happier than I ever dreamed I could be. Someone that would touch my life so profoundly and just give me a whole new reason to breathe...

April 21, Holy Thursday of the year 2011. God rendered me another most precious gift a woman could have. A gift we prayed to arrive safe and sound. All the woes and pains I had departed and the sense of bliss reinstated. I had seen my precious Quad for the first time.

Well, a day before my delivery I had 2 days asthma attack. Oscar called me the day before to check me out if I’m okay. I told him not to worry and that all is well at home. On his second call afternoon of 3, he went home and ask for an early out and took me to the hospital. I find trouble in my breathing and that the medicine I take hasn’t made any result at all. I was checked by an on deck Obstetrician and found that I was 5 cm dilated. I told her I’m okay and that I'm not feeling pain anyway except for my hard breathings. But circumstances knocked me down only to find out that I’m set to give birth anytime of the day. I was alleviated for 24 hours for my pulmo , had antibiotics and I was set for a painless delivery after. I had such distress on the procedure. Several injections on my backbone and a tube inside was slotted in. 9cm-1cm I’m ready to push! Quad’s head showed but doctors found out he had dropped his heart’s beat from 150 bpm down to 50’s. I couldn’t breathe and could no longer push the baby. I had an emergency caesarian operation to prevent oxygen from being cut off. A cord prolapse happened that Quad’s heart rate dropped. Labor became so stressful for him. Upon knowing of what happened, my tatay was brought to a doctor for weariness. He was unable to breathe and was worried of what I was experiencing at that moment. I woke up with tubes on my back and in my abdomen. I was attended by 4 doctors and there were 3 tubes that measures for about 3 inches entrenched on my abdomen. Huge tanks of oxygens were used plus the hourly nebulizer routine for my recovery. But with God’s grace and providence, with prayers and with the love of the people surrounding us, we made it and we survive! And indeed everything’s possible when everything isn’t okay.

On the 5th day of my stay at San Pedro Hospital, I had Quad beside me finally! He was amazingly hushed. Sleeping the whole day and would only cry if he poo. Truly, relationship grows much stronger when you both have nothing but faith. Our stay at the hospital was a bittersweet memory we would never forget. But I was glad I had Oscar with me who never left me on what I was getting into. He was responsible enough to keep everything calm and in place, financially, emotionally. (Well, we had a huge hospital bill anyway). Friends? I would never trade them for making my life wonderful! I am lucky to have my Meno Gaia Co. Ltd. Family. Me and my family is so much thankful for surrounding me with good people with good vibes (ahhh ha!! Thanx for the donations guyz! Didn’t expect it!).

All is well and ends well. Finally we were home and I’m enjoying all the works and Quad’s cries. But to think that everything was over, Ora has been hospitalized for 4 days after our discharge from the hospital. She was diagnosed of having diarrhea and I was so worried. But with God’s blessings, she went home okay.

I watched all the chances God has given me. My heart kept singing for my sunshine’s to be okay!

Nobody, not even poets,
Has ever measured,

How much the heart can hold.” –Zelda Fitzgerald

My Writings On The Wall

A weary mother returned from the store,

Lugging groceries through the kitchen door.

Awaiting her arrival was her 8 year old son,

Anxious to relate what his younger brother had done.

“While I was out playing and Dad was on a call,

T.J. took his crayons and wrote on the wall!

It’s on the new paper you just hung in the den.

I told him you’d be mad at having to do it again.”

She let out a moan and furrowed her brow,

“Where is your little brother right now?”

She emptied her arms and with a purposeful stride,

She marched to his closet where he had gone to hide.

She called his full name as she entered his room.

He trembled with fear–he knew that meant doom!

For the next ten minutes, she ranted and raved

About the expensive wallpaper and how she had saved.

Lamenting all the work it would take to repair,

She condemned his actions and total lack of care.

The more she scolded, the madder she got,

Then stomped from his room, totally distraught!

She headed for the den to confirm her fears.

When she saw the wall, her eyes flooded with tears.

The message she read pierced her soul with a dart.

It said, “I love Mommy,” surrounded by a heart.

Well, the wallpaper remained, just as she found it,

With an empty picture frame hung to surround it.

A reminder to her, and indeed to all,

Take time to read the handwriting on the wall

I recall when I was 4 years old, I wrote on our wall forenames with words I couldn’t wholly understood yet. Words that meant nothing to me, not until I read this poem from a blogger. If our house before still stood you could see my writings on the wall which made the partition repulsive. But even if I wrote loads of those words never did I hear mother fated me for my actions. Now I knew why those handwritings on our wall still lingers.

I wrote with spellings like this:

" Adng lav Nany lav Taty"

Getting Closer On Our Big Day!

Just had my Urinalysis, CBC w/ platelet and HBG Ag Tests today and hopefully I’ll be getting good results. My tummy’s getting bigger (others have said), but to me, it’s still small in contrast with my foremost pregnancy. I’m scheduled to pass all the needed requirements for my labor later this afternoon and will have my weekly check up. So excited for our baby “ Quad “ very soon! And while on my way waiting for Oscar to arrive after work, I’ll try to see some of those baby stuffs again I plan to buy next week at the mall. Well, 'haven’t bought boy stuffs yet, since we plan to buy sooner once my maternity leave starts. And oh! I’m getting Braxton hicks this time! We’re 3 weeks away yet before our due date Baby Q! Kisses!

Li'l Surprise!

Got these stuffs today from our li’l Ms. Ayu Shimokawa of Japan & Ms. Juri from the head office. Muffins, toasted cookie, invisible candies ( Yes! Coz I ate already before I decided to take a pic of those *evil grin* ), and a grape & berry lip balm inside! Thankies muchoo to both.

The Four Forces

Excerpt from Paolo Coelho's Blog:

Father Alan Jones says that building our soul requires Four Invisible Forces, namely love, death, power and time. It is necessary to love because we are loved by God. It is necessary to be conscious of death in order to understand life better. One has to fight in order to grow – but without falling into the trap of the power that we obtain in doing so, because we know that such power is worth nothing. And lastly, it is necessary to accept that our soul – although eternal – is at this moment caught in the web of time, with all its opportunities and limitations.

First Force: Love
Rabbi Iaakov’s wife was always looking for an excuse to argue with her husband. Iaakov never answered her provocations.Until one night when, during a dinner with some friends, the rabbi had a ferocious argument with his wife to the surprise of all at table.“What happened?” they asked. “Why did you break your habit of never answering?”“Because I realized that what bothered my wife most was the fact that I remained silent. Acting in this way, I remained far from her emotions. My reaction was an act of love, and I managed to make her understand that I heard her words.”

Second Force: Death
As soon as he died, Juan found himself in a very beautiful place, surrounded by all the comfort and beauty that he had dreamed of.A figure dressed in white came up to him and said, “You are entitled to anything you want.”Enchanted, Juan did everything he had dreamed of during life. After many years of pleasure, he sought out the figure in white. He said that he had experienced everything and that now he needed a little work to make him feel useful.“That’s the only thing I cannot get for you,” said the figure in white.“But I’ll spend eternity dying of boredom! I’d much rather be in hell!”“And where do you think you are?”

Third Force: Power
“I’ve spent a good part of the day thinking about things that I should not think about, desiring things that I should not desire, planning to do things that I should not do.”The master pointed to a plant and asked the disciple if he knew what it was.“It’s a belladonna. It can kill you if you eat the leaves. But it can’t kill you just by looking at it. Likewise, negative desires can cause no harm – if you don’t let yourself be seduced by them.”

Fourth Force: Time

A carpenter and his apprentices were traveling through the province of Qi in search of building materials. They saw a giant tree; five men holding hands could not encompass its girth, and its crown reached almost to the clouds.“Let’s not waste our time with this tree,” said the master carpenter. “It would take us forever to cut it down. If we wanted to make a ship out of that heavy trunk, the ship would sink. If we tried to use it to build a roof, the walls would have to be specially reinforced.”The group continued on its way. One of the apprentices remarked, “Such a big tree and no use to anyone!”“That’s where you’re wrong,” said the master carpenter. “The tree was true to its own destiny. If it had been like all the others, we would have cut it down. But because it had the courage to be different, it will remain alive and strong for a long time.”

Little girl and her father

Little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter,‘Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don’t fall into the river.’ The little girl said, ‘No, Dad. You hold my hand.’‘What’s the difference?’ Asked the puzzled father.‘There’s a big difference,’ replied the little girl. ‘If I hold your hand and something happens to me,chances are that I may let your hand go.But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens,you will never let my hand go.’

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in itsbond.
So hold the hand of the person who loves you rather than expecting themto hold yours…This message is too short……but carries a lot of Feelings.

I just cut the tie.

Just dumped a friend for 10 or 11 years on Facebook. Honestly, I am not even sad or mad about it. The whole situation has helped me realize how important it is to evaluate friendships. If you have the slightest feeling that your friendship with someone is toxic you should cut ties with that person. The whole dumping started with a rude message. I did not even bother responding to that comment. It was pointless to respond to something like that. Honestly, what kind of friend says that to you? I guess it’s the kind of friend that tries to put you down all the time. The kind of friend that says “Look at your hair, do you think that is healthy? Who would do that? NOT A FRIEND. Not someone who questions your beliefs based on speculation. Not someone who constantly contradicts herself when judging others. If your “friend” says stuff to try and put you down, you need to evaluate your relationship. HYPOCRITES piss me off more than anything in the world. I do not understand how a person can constantly talk about someone else for being unmarried with kids yet they are in an often worse situation. Well, I’ll be having kids soon out of marriage but I’m glad to shout it out unto your face that I have them only with ONE man.

I am rising above and moving on with my life. :)