A Pound Of Cure! A Photo Before My Natal Day!

Taking a photo a day will left you with a rich visual history of your life. 

Despite of having 8 bursting lessons today I still manage to take a photo of my self ;) An ailing photo of me I mean … and I'm beginning to sense a forthcoming fever and broken bones  and I'm feeling crashed and burned (arte lang!!! ) I just hope I wouldn't be absent the next day :(  

One more working day tomorrow and I'm off for my 3 days vacation for my birthday!!!  But I can’t celebrate with Oscar on the actual day 'coz it’s a weekday. So we will be celebrating in advance tomorrow. 

This gonna be I think the last photo of me before I'll be on my 24th year. 

ORA: Bom, I'mb All Duffed Up! I Feel Terribbble :(

Ora,

I was never told  there'd be days like this! Sniffling, Aching, Stuffy Head, Fever... you had these...I pray these would all be wiped out!

After 3 days and 4 nights of an on and off fever:

Doctor’s Diagnosis: Bacterial Tonsillitis with a complimentary psychiatric check up from  Dokie (haha,) oh! OCPD daw Ora! Yes you have signs of it and things might definitely get worse...

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You had your CBC test and you were great! The actual pain of the needle didn’t even make you become hysterical. They didn’t hear sobs from you either. You just sat and looked nowhere. You were the noisiest patient and you kept singing and counting in the face of you being frail because of the infection.

But you were impulsive…

When she checked you up, you were fine. You meekly do as you are told when dokie wants you to say “AAAHHH” to see your mouth. But you maybe was hurt so you cried and Papa looked at you sternly telling you to refrain from crying but you didn’t. You cried-out-loud as if nothing and nobody can stop you. That’s the point the resident doctor told us concerning you might having OCPD. Beginning and mounting.

Let me tell you sincerely about this..

OCPD. The notion of you having these symptoms didn’t exactly sink in when I knew about it. Not until I wrote this blog at this moment. The doctor discerned that there was no way of controlling you when you desire to take a bath 3-4 times in a day. Yes, you  love baths but now you scream when you try to want more. You get irritated without doubt and you totally blubber for irrelevant reasons. Ra, I hope you overcome these. She told us these might be signs before now!

*OCPD (Obsessive–compulsive personality disorder)  - Having a tendency to dwell on unwanted thoughts or perform certain repetitious rituals, especially as a defense against anxiety from unconscious conflicts.


Most common OCD behaviors

Parents of young children should keenly watch their kids for signs of repeated behavior that might be indicative of OCD. Young children with OCD are usually obsessed with the fear of being contaminated or acquiring germs; getting everything in order; or lucky and unlucky numbers – just to name a few. Therefore, you would see constant behavioral patterns in these young children: taking a bath and teeth brushing several times a day; or walking and moving about in certain ways, for instance. 


Credits to http://momcenter.com.ph 

Between Home and Work

Normally, I try to keep walls between home life and my professional career. I leave my kids to my parents, and then I go to work and do my job. My company has a decent vacation and sick leave policy. They aren’t monsters anyway who refuse to grant a day off . But early morning today (1 am) Ora started talking in  her sleep. I kept putting cool towel on her forehead hoping her  fever would go down. Everyone in the house was worried. I packed her things already from her diapers to her  clothes, to the pillows  she might be using for her confinement. I could hardly find balance between work and family today. And it seems like an impossible goal to work on this day. I still have 5 hours to decide… But today I was torn between juggling workloads in the office and my family responsibilities. I wanted to stay and look for her while she’s sick and work has to be put on the back-burner  but I need to work too as today I promised to go back from job.  From Quad’s illness, to mine, down to Ora, everything takes a toll in my life to this very day. I felt very guilty for this.

I know she needs more of my  time. 
I know she  deserves it. 

A Little About Us And This Blog!

The internet took too much of my time today. Walay mabuhat!!!! So I began writing this… 

Kids?  

We have two.

Ora is turning 3 this June. She is pure magic! She is equally silly and reserved (what???? Hmm.. the opposite I mean). I see some of myself in her (her being intolerant,demanding and her passion for singing hmmm.. not to mention her silly dance and bits of her Papa in her (her ability to learn things in two seconds. Over!!!!! Essentially, silly things! ) :)

Quad is 9 months old.  He is sweet and warm, and astounding. We’re still learning more of him, but his warm, happy smile tells me that we have great stuff ahead.

A little about me?

Yes.. just a little…

I grew up with no bro’s and sissies and currently live in the Northern part of Davao. Bow. 

About him?

He’s great! Nyaaahhh!!! I have this mental block. Hehehe…. But seriously, Oscar is the smartest person I know, the “madiskarte” man I have  high inregard for and a family man I want Quad to be in prospect.

 Why I blog?

On track. When I did nothing in my job, in my cubicle, but to look through the internet for 8 hours and go home with pay (Yeah right! That’s one thing I love ‘bout this career!  But on various occasions that is. *wink*).Kidding!  We actually work and we work with enthusiasm. Hmmm… truthfully that’s when I came to have sight of Ora. I didn’t have much photos and stories heard about my childhood and this is what I want my kids to contain.

Having small children has proven so all-consuming that I am trying to carve out some time for myself.  Writing helps me to process what I’m thinking as I often don’t entirely know what I feel until I sit down to write.  The paradox in choosing my family for my subject matter didn’t go astray on me.

What sorts of things do you plan on writing about?

Each and every day, I strive to be grateful for the wonder, beauty, and hope in the small moments, the moments that, when strung together, form an entire childhood.  I hope to help others seek out and savor these moments in their own lives.

You will also find letters to my children strewn in here and there. I would want them to be able to read my thoughts–about me, about my life, their lives, about our family, about the world.  These letters and notes to my children, to my husband, reflect my passion as a mom and my promise to be a committed wife and will be serious at times and silly at others.

Imagine that your children are older and reading this blog without you. 

I am cautious and deliberate. Writing about them is no exclusion. I also want them to know that every minute of their childhood is precious to me and that building happy memories for them to carry through life has been one of my priorities.

Saving Moments With YOU!

Our Little Ms. Universe!  Wooooooops! Sorry for the blurry photos :)

 I looked at you today

and saw the same beautiful eyes

that looked at me with love

when you were a baby.
I looked at you today

and saw my beautiful daughter,

no longer a baby,

but a beautiful person

with a full range of emotions.

Every day is exciting
as I continue to watch you grow,
And I want you to always know,
that in good and bad times
I will love you, and that no matter
what you do or how you think
or what you say, you can depend on
my support, guidance,
friendship and love
every minute of every day.
I love being your mother.

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Ora, 

I pray we'll grow closer together and as each passing year ends we won't just be mother and daughter but also will be best of friends. You were so like me, in so many ways and as I've watched you grow, I've seen so much of myself in you, much more than you'll ever know.


 Trust me with your love story, and allow Me to bring you the truly great love you desire (LOL). You arrived and taught me that I knew so very little.You taught me that once you have a child, you are more vulnerable than you ever dreamed possible.

You showed me watching you sleep was the most important thing that I could do on any given afternoon. You have taught me to laugh at myself, because nothing makes you laugh harder. You have shown me that life passes so quickly.

I don’t want to waste a single moment of this time that I’ve been given to share with you.

You have brought me more joy than I ever dreamed possible.

With more love,

Mama <3

Ailing Beary-Bear-y Quad

Quad,

You’ve been ailing since Monday morning. I was so anxious having the thought of bringing you to the hospital on that circumstance. You’ve been a cheerful, hale and hearty little boy and this is your first time to be sick like this. I took you to the doctor yesterday. We had a ride... a long… literally loooooooong ride going to your Pedia since Papa is still on his way to the city. I’m delighted he was permitted to go back to Davao promptly. When he knew about what you were going into, I knew he was too also troubled.

You looked very pale yesterday and you were not as jovial as you were. It’s so strange seeing you that way. It was a sooo-summery-weather when I took you downtown but I’m happy you were so behave then when you had your checked up.  Even the Doc well-liked you for not refusing to be checked (unlike Ate haha). Aside from behaving well, they were taken aback how weighty you are (yeah! You are still really big) dear. Thanks to those med-reps helping me out  in putting you on your carrier. You have meds and still under observation for 10 days. I hope you will be okay soon!

When we went home Ora missed you a lot. She then stood up going towards you with a beaming smile with hands on your chin smiling , saying “ Qwa-Qwa” with a light jump and clappings. I just didn’t see how you reacted from that. Sweet Ate! (sometimes) :)

I love you sweet Quad! We love you so much! We are so proud of you as we watch you blossom before our eyes… May you always stay as loving and sweet as you are today… We know you our little sweet Bear. ♥

All my love,
Mama xoxo

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